Imperfectly Perfect

"Love doesn't make the world go round. Love is what makes the ride worthwhile."
                                                                        — Franklin P. Jones

This world I have been for so long never made any difference. We live, face challenges and problems, survive, and die. I thought all of these rides were the same, that they were just made to let the journey be longer and harder. I thought I had known everything the world has, but I was wrong. I was wrong because there's this 'thing' I haven't felt yet.

Back then in the elementary years, I have known love. For me, it was the feeling you feel when you see a good-looking, fair-skinned, tall and smart guy a.k.a. Mr. Perfect. It's when Mr. Perfect passes and everything's in slow motion. It's when you do not see anyone but him. That's how I picture out love. Unfortunately, I knew how love feels like, but I never felt it. I never felt it until in the fifth grade.

I believe that my crush in the fifth grade was the Mr. Perfect I have pictured out for he was the one who had a great impact in my life. I know I was too young to be in love at that time, but I seriously consider it as love. He was an altar server. Our school is beside the church, so it was an advantage. The first time I saw him, I got goose bumps. It was like everything stops and you don't want the time to move. He was walking, wearing an altar server's uniform which makes him even more charming. I saw his perfect dazzling eyes. When I finally met him, my ride was even more worthwhile. Everything about him mesmerized me.Since then, I felt it. I am in love. Love came into my way.

There was a realization I had. I was thinking of Mr. Perfect who has all the good qualities I want, but the  guy I saw wasn't Mr. Perfect. He is not tall, not that good-looking and not that smart. But despite of his imperfections and despite of not having the qualities I want, I still felt it. Since that time, I called him 'imperfectly perfect'. I realized that it's what love is. No matter how perfect you want the guy to be, you'll still love an imperfect guy whom you will consider as perfect. Love lets you love perfectly a guy of imperfections. Love doesn't make us breathe. It makes breathing more fun and easier. Love gives you goose bumps. It arrives at an unexpected time. 

If I were to define the guy I would want to have, he would definitely be my crush in the fifth grade. He has dazzling eyes, captivating smile, and sense of humor. The things I liked much about him was his closeness to God, great devotion, love for God, thoughtfulness and bright personality. In short, he, himself. The physical attributes may somehow affect your love for someone, but what matters are their personality and attitude. You cannot do anything if you felt love for a person who wasn't able to meet your expectations. We use our hearts to love, not our eyes. Instead of looking for the right guy, our heart feels for the right guy. 

I would love someone because I want to and time permits me to. For me, there is no perfect timing in falling in love. It comes naturally. It just comes suddenly,making your life worth living. Love should not be denied. You should accept it for it may change your life. It may spice up your life of boredom. Love may color your dull life. I will never decline to love somebody for these reasons. Regret always awaits at the end. Trying won't always hurt us, but makes us even stronger. I won't stop loving for this is what the rides in our life want us to feel. They want us to feel the excitement, fear, anger, sadness and other feelings. 

Until now, this feeling never got tired of loving him. It's been five years, but the love I feel for Mr. Perfectly imperfect gets stronger and stronger. He may be far away, but my love won't stop.

Life won't be imperfectly perfect if there is no love. It gives you reason to live, strength in facing challenges, faith in coping with problems, courage to survive and bravery to face death. Maybe love let this worthwhile ride continue while the guy continues the ride in unity with God.