Best Experience

     “High school life is the best part of being a teenager,” my parents always say. But since I chose to study in CavSci, they told me that it would be difficult and stressful. Of course I did not believe. I thought they’re just exaggerating, so I still studied in CavSci. Realization came when I was in first year. It was really stressful because of projects, home works and quizzes. My parents were right. High school life in CavSci isn’t that easy and best. But still, I continued. I’ve chosen this life, so I’ll face it.

     Now that I’m already in third year, I realized that high school life in CavSci could be the best. Before I enter this school, the word “best” for me is happiness, fun, relaxing and free from anything.  I understood that for my parents, “best” means productive, excellence and achievement. It’s like you’re not only good in your social life in high school, but also in academics. This high school life was really the best, especially in English.

I know some of the students find the English subject boring and full of reading reports. I’m one of those students. I become lazy and sleepy during English time since elementary. But this third year, it definitely changed. Yes, there are still reading reports, but English time became more exciting. One best reason to love our English subject is our improved informal theme. My handwriting sucks, so I hate writing in informal theme notebooks, especially when it needs to be in cursive. Instead of writing our informal themes in notebooks, we had our blog. It doesn’t require handwriting. It’s easy to type than to write. Blogs given to us are not boring. It’s about our life, experiences, feelings and things we want to say. I’ve always wanted to make a blog where I can tell my emotions, but I don’t have enough time. Through our blogs, I am not only expressing my emotions. I am also doing my projects. I know I’m not good in blogs, but it makes me feel comfortable. Another reason is our speech activity. We are able to come up with ideas on how to make our performance more interesting and catchy. Our jazz chant, speech choir, conventional speech choir were really the best experience I had since first year. I need to concentrate and to participate well for our performance to be good. It challenged us. The Romeo and Juliet excerpts were also the best. It’s a great experience because we were able to show the scenes based on our understandings. These are the main experiences which made high school life the best.

     Most of all, there is a person who taught us more than what we should learn and know. She gave us the chance to experience the third year life we deserve. When it’s already 4:00 pm, ma’am Mae is already at the door. She’s seldom late in our class and I can see that she’s hardworking. English time is not only about the lessons in English. It’s also time for life lessons. She shares her stories and gives us advices. It’s like a time for realizations. This third year, the first time I cried was in our English time. It’s a topic about family thingy. The things she tells us are not only for the brain, but also for the heart. In our English time, I have to be real, mentally and emotionally prepared. That experience ma’am Mae shared to us defined the word BEST.

     Third year life in Cavsci may really be the most difficult part of high school. But still, this third year life taught me so many things, granted me memorable memories and gave me unforgettable experiences. I think high school is not just about having fun. It’s about having fun while learning and experiencing new things.

Inappreciable

Dear Nanay Mami,

     You know that I haven't become a better granddaughter. We both know how wrong I've become. You are the only person who has been there since I was a child. You know me better than anyone. I am definitely lucky to have you. But instead of repaying you, I did mischievous things.

     There were times when I do not listen to you and your advices. Sometimes, I also disobey you. Doing those things made you feel worse than ever and it made me feel worst. It makes me unworthy of your love. You are the only person who sees the real me, yet I did not give importance with what you feel with the things I do and words I say. I have failed you with my deeds and I am very sorry for that.

     Here I am, sincerely apologizing for everything. I apologize for every single deed I've done and word I've said. They caused you too much pain. I know I won't be able to take away the pain, but I hope my apology can lessen it. I really hope I can. I know I am not worthy of your forgiveness, but I'll still try. I am asking for forgiveness from you because I want you to be free from pain. I am doing this because it hurts me so much to see you sad and with pain. I am doing it because I love you and I do not want to see you hurt anymore. Especially by me.

     You are by my side in all the challenges and problems I face in life. You are my strength and courage. You are so important to me. It's hard to find someone who'll still be there despite of all the hurt and pain you have caused her. Fortunately, I have that someone. I have you. That's why I want to ask for your forgiveness. I want to live a happy life with you once again. I do understand if you do not accept my apology. At least I was able to let you know how sorry I am for everything I've done. I love you very much.

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                                                                                                                      Not-so-nice Granddaughter